I’m sorry.

I treated you so wrong, and yet here you are, still with me. We both have lied, and hid our true selves from each other. We both terribly hurt each other in different ways, it’s amazing that we’re still together. I look back, and see how ridiculous I acted towards you, and maybe that’s why you do the things you do. Really, there is no excuse for what either of us did. But I can take the blame. I wish I had woke up sooner, and started to make things different, but it wasn’t until recently when I did realize that if I kept doing what I did, I’d lose you.

I should be furious with you, because you lied to me again. You disappointed me again. You made me believe that you didn’t have this side to you at all. If I had done what you told me to earlier, I would have found out sooner. I’m actually glad I found out now though…usually I’d fight with you and probably wouldn’t talk to you until I felt better. Now though, I’m okay with this. I don’t feel angry. I’m very very disappointed, but that can easily get better. I do hope the lies stop though. I can’t lie to you anymore. It’s not worth it. I hope you feel the same soon.

I love you, and we’re getting better. And it would be a shame if after two years, we ended. I can’t imagine being without you. It’s a horrible feeling. I can’t do it. I don’t know about you, but I’m not cool with throwing away 2 years of my life. I’m sorry, and I hope you forgive me. I forgive you. I always do.